Letting go and not rationalizing everything gives way to freedom. A coworker of mine who has been going through a hard time lately said something that struck a chord with me personally. I asked him how he was feeling and he responded with a quick and pained "horrible". A close friend of mine who is also a fellow coworker is an Elder at his church. He was clearly affected by our coworker's demeanor so in an effort to lift his spirits he tries to get him to see his life is better than he believes it is. Me seeing the conversation quickly going south exhibited by rolled eyes and exasperated sighs I exited stage-left back to my cube. A few cases and an email later, my close friend comes over to reveal to me that our coworker has "lost it". "Curse God", he says. "He hasn't done anything I've prayed for Him to do". My senses go off immediately. Even though his words hurt to hear, I couldn't help but relate to his frustration. After a few words volleyed back and forth my friend asked this question: "Are you living for Him though? You can't expect to receive from God when you refuse to live to Him. You can pray all day but what's the point if you're not going to listen?"
"Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him". We all have gone through afflictions, some of us more than others. Some on physical tips, others on emotional and mental. I sat back at my desk and thought about all the myred mess I've been through, and remembered very vividly the victim mentality I cloaked myself in. Generally the human side of us likes to kick its feet up at the pity party, casually going back to the relive-it-all buffet for heaping seconds. But when we choose to only focus on the past, the negative and what God has not done, we miss out on the life we should be living. True we don't always get what we want and at times we ask where is God when I need Him if not for anything else but simple clarification. However, at the end of the day never take God's silence as a cold shoulder. It simply means He trusts us enough to let us move on our own.
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Fri, April 15, 2011
by Joi